Here are some readings that may support you in your healing journey.
Radical Acceptance by Tara Brach
Wherever you go, There you are by Jon Kabat –Zinn
The Mindfulness and Acceptance Workbook for Depression:Using Acceptance and Commitment Therapy to Move Through Depression and Create a Life Worth Living by Patricia J. Robinson PhD, Kirk D. Strosahl PhD
In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction by Garbor Mate
When the Body Says No by Garbor Mate
Staring at the Sun: Overcoming the Terror of Death by Irvin D. Yalom
Trauma and the Body: A Neurobiologically Informed Approach To Clinical Practice by Pat Ogden